Change is a positive thing, right? But is it wrong to be so comfortable with your set routine? Why should I embrace my world being tumbled around. My life is soon to change so much. My comfort zone is soon to have it’s walls broken. I’ve had the same plans for the last year. My class schedule throughout the week, and then at my sister’s on the weekends. I meet this Friday with the AiA lady to figure out $$ circumstances and know how the hell I’m paying for schooling. My sister moves next month and I won’t know what the fuck is going on about my job, which she makes transportation to possible. Not only that, but soon she’s quitting her weekend job and won’t need me to babysit. I don’t know dates as to when I’ll be moving into student housing yet either! There’s so much on my mind. I’m trying to remain calm and collected, but I’m secretly scared shitless. My life is so heavily involved with family, I’m scared I’m going to lose that. My nephew is my everything, my sister is my not so sane rock in this life, and my brother in law provides abundantly for me. I’m scared I’ll be left out. That my interaction will be limited to a screen, and I don’t want that. I’m scared of being out of my comfort zone. I’m used to the same people, same setting seeing them, and I’m happy with that. I’m ready to embrace new people, but I’m nervous af. I just wish I had answers. I wish I could foresee what’s to come. Sometimes I just want to give up on my life plans. I tell myself I’m dreaming, I won’t be more than what my parents are in life. I get close to just quitting everything, and then I come to realize embracing the future is the only way to make it happen. I realize the only way to know is to keep going. I’m young, I have a whole life ahead…. But why can’t I just know!!!???